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Current Mood: Sleepy

Well, I really want to learn flash to make a layout but I can’t think of anything I would put on it.  It’s not like I have a porfolio or anything and I don’t think any of the content I have can be moved over to flash.  I’ll be thinking, but I doubt I anything will come to mind.  *grr*

In other news, I’m really putting off the new layout.  I feel really insecure about it.  It’s pretty, yes, but is it good?  I still feel it’s too busy, but I can’t think of any way to make it cleaner without totally revamping it, and I don’t want to do that.  So I made a new layout for the section about me, Tragic Melody.  It’s not up, I haven’t coded it yet, but I threw something extra in the layout that’s kinda unessacery and I don’t know if I should keep it or not.  It’s a box that could serve many different purposes, but I thought of it as a link container.  Where links for each section would be displayed.  Then I would have to look for some script that does that.

It’s late and I’m just rambling.  So good night.

Current Mood: LOL

Because I have a really bad one.  OK, I hung out with some friends on Thursday night and Sid showed me a video on his iPod.  Very catchy tune.  You can find it here.  It’s the ending from Disaster Movie.  I didn’t catch most of it the first time around, so I looked it up, re-watched it, and LOLed!  I have no idea why I think it’s so funny.  I also looked up the trailer and thought it looked stupid.  So I don’t think I’m going to be watching it; ever.

I had to share.  But as my good reason, the rotation is late.  And I’m going to change the layout soon and give the Chinese zodiac info it’s own subdomain.  So I got my friends approval and made the layout, just need to change it.  And I just need to code the zodiac layout, which is crap.  I need to be inspired to do something I guess.

And I looked up “count” on YouTube and loled again.  My sister showed me that video over winter break.  It’s actually count censored, but I couldn’t remember.  Anyway look it up if you haven’t seen it.  Enough sillyness for one night.

Current Mood: Fine

Well, stayed up until 3 this morning doing dishes and making a new layout. I was inspired by this tutorial. So I blended a few photos I took in Japan (Mt. Fuji, Asakusa temple, and a pagoda) to make the header and mimiced the tutorial to the best of my ability. Minus the font, balloons, and navigation. Just because I’m too lazy to take a screenie and up it, I’m going to quickly desctibe how it turned out. It’s a brighter and slightly more purpuly blue than the tutorial, I added a sakura petal brush and pink moon, and glassy buttons for the navigation. And a sucky footer. I really like how the navigation turned out. But I think the rest might be too busy. So tomorrow I’m going to ask a few friends to look at it and then make an avi for it. But I really don’t want to change anything because I’m lazy like that. But it might be really sucky and I can’t tell because I’ve been staring at it for 5 hours straight. *sigh* I better ask and fix it, then I can learn from it.

Random tangent, I’m listening to “I Hate This Part” by the Pussycat Dolls. I heard it on the radio and had the urge to listen to it on repeat and attempt to sing along to it. I haven’t actually sang along to it, my dad’s home and I don’t want to make anyone endure my horrible singing voice. It’s got a pretty chorus I think.

I can’t remember the last time a blogged, that tends to happen a lot, but I had some friends over to cook last week friday and it went so well! Nothing bad happend, I didn’t screw anyone up, and I think they all enjoyed it. After we got done eating, I got so tired though. After they left, I just took a nap.

And my cousin/friend (I consider her a cousin, but we’re not related) found me on facebook! And I’m planning on going up to visit the weekend before my spring break. I don’t know where exactly she lives (I know the general area, so it’s not like I’m driving 4 states away or something), so I’ve got to give her a call sometime. I’m nervous and excited, nervous because I’ve never driven to the area she lives in but excited because I get to see her and hang out. I gotta save my money though, it’s in like a month.

I know, this post has been really jumpy, but I’m in a mood. A slightly hyper mood. But I don’t know if anyone cares, but I probably won’t finish what happened over winter break. I’m just too lazy. But I intend to finish my trip to Japan, because that’s more exciting and important to me. I just don’t know when…

Current Mood: Fine

My laptop died. There will be a rant on this later, so you’re prepared. It died 2 weeks ago, the graphics card on the motherboard went. So if I were to repair it I would need a new motherboard, and for a Sony, those don’t come cheap. So my parents were kind enough to give me $500 to put to a new laptop. I bought one on Friday that, with tax, cost me $675 or so. About the same ammount it would cost to get my old one fixed.

Now about my new laptop. It’s a 14 inch HP with a decent graphics card. There’s a bunch of things I dislike about it, I’ll put those in my rant, but it’s a laptop that I can store all my stuff on and doesn’t do funky stuff, yet. So overall, I can live with it for another 3-4 years, if it lasts that long.

*RANT*
About my old computer (feels funny saying/typing that):
It was a Sony which was expensive to begin with, then it started doing funky things. Like it not shutting down properly, staying on afrer I closed the lid (before it would always go to sleep), waking up to update and never going back to sleep, and getting pixely graphics every thime I logged on. Not to mention the CD/DVD drive stopped recognizing CDs and wouldn’t write DVDs for a period of time. I took it in and found out it was the laser and the software was fine. It would have cost me $700 to fix (including labor), which is 1/3 of what I paid for it. You wanna know how long that comp lasted me? A year and a half. I was pissed. So I’m never buying a Sony laptop again.

About my new computer:
Alright, nothing is wrong with it, just little things that tick me off. First, the color, It’s copper. UGLY! It reminds me too much of orange, which I don’t like. Next, it doesn’t have an S-video out port or whatever, I have one of those cords. I need to buy an HDMI cord to display this on the TV. The volume and media buttons are like the touch pad, not an actual button. And they’re really hard to get to work. Same for the wireless, it may be hard to turn the wireless off on a plane before it goes on. The thumbnails for avi files doesn’t show up. I think that’s a Vista 64 problem, not a hardware problem. This isn’t a problem so much because I know I’ll get used to it, the keyboard is smaller so typing is a little hard. My old laptop was 15.whatever inches. Oh, and the touch pad isn’t nearly sensitive enough, I have to tap 2 or 3 times for it to register sometimes.
*END RANT*

One good thing was that I can still get some of my files off of my old laptop. I have to rescue a few more before I can get rid of it.

I could go on about random things (not having to do with computers), but I have to leave in 15 minutes so I’ll just go over one thing. I finally heard Gackt’s new song GHOST without the background noise of the PV and I love it! The first 30 seconds make me giggle because I see him and his posse getting shocked and moving strangely in my mind. I think the parts of the PV where they robot dance is both hillarious and cool.

I’m done, and we’ll see of this mood plugin works well or not.

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I was going to put an “OMG” at the beginning of this posts title.  But I figured that would be too annoying.  First things first, I had a whopping 12 comments that weren’t marked as spam.  I deleted most of them, but left 2: one’s a shameless plug and I don’t care and the other one is kinda random but it had no website attached to it so I figured “why not?”  The rest I deleted because of wierdness, pointlessness and I can’t understand Russian.  Now that that’s out of the way, back to me!

I don’t even remember the last time I blogged so I’m going from where I think I left off.  I ended up not going to business and failing.  I passed Chinese with a B and Japanese with an A.  I’m not taking Chinese this semester, you know I hated it, but my friend is continuing.  I kinda laugh at her and kinda feel sorry for her.  She wanted an easy A class and just wanted to get a full year out of the way.  Anyway, I’m just taking Japanese and an intro to computer programing class.  Just because I think its a stepping stone to a web site building class.  I think.  I may have missed that one fall semester.  Now I’m kinda going backward.  I hope you can follow.  I guess that’s it for the school section.

After those finals was winter break.  My sister came home!  I was so happy!  We drove back from the airport during an ice storm.  It took us like 5 hours when it should have taken half that.  Anyway, my sister took some pictures of the car when we got home and they are below for your enjoyment.

I think my sisters door was frozen shut at the first place my dad had to clean off the ice.  I thought it was quite humorous.  Anyway, we had a nice, long, and fun chat while my dad was driving.  Can’t think of anything else between then and Christmas.  We did make snowmen (mine had horns though), I’ll post those pictures later.  It’s getting late.  Made cookies, celebrated my moms birthday and then celebrated Christmas.

I asked for money for Christmas.  So I didn’t have that many presents.  But I got a set of 5 tea cups with a sakura-ish pattern on them.  I picked it out and was very happy.  Hmm…  I’m getting tired so I’ll end it here.  There will be a part II … sometime.  じゃ　ね！　　Lets see if that worked…

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I haven’t blooged because I’ve been feeling very depressed.  I had another breakdown on the 8th and the next day my dad made an appointment for me to see my nurse practitioner (person who perscribes my medication), but it’s not for another week.  I feel that I need stronger medication or a different medication.  I had been taking it consistantly,  but I still had problems.  And I noticed that I’m not catching on as easily in school, I just can’t seem to focus.  I think that’s another symptom of being bi-polar.  I feel a lot better now, but I still have to catch up on my school work.  Oh, and I withdrew from English…  I feel like I won’t accomplish anything in life, I can’t even keep a full course load.  I don’t know what to do…

Moving away from that, I made a subdomain for a rotation site.  Yes you can download the songs, but there are rules!  I don’t think anyone has found it yet, and there are no downloads…  It hasn’t even been a day, so I don’t know why I’m concerned about that.  I need to get a new layout up, because this one relys on image buttons that I can’t easily change.  So hopefully in the next week I can do that.

Hrm, what else?  A couple of my friends and I are going into Chicago to pick up tickets for the Dir en grey concert there.  We don’t know when, but at the same time, we’re going to go to Mitsuwa, again.  I really don’t have the money to spend, so I’m not exactly excited about that part.  But I’m looking forward to the concert.  A bit of a random jump, but my family is going out to dinner tonight.  No reason, but I’m happy about it.  This is shorter than my usual, but that’s all I have to say for right now.  See you later!

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Well, I had a near break down for no reason Wednesday night.  I just got depressed and anxious.  I’m still quite anxious, I feel like I’m paralyzed, backed into a corner and can’t do anything to get myself out of it.  I know what I can do, but I feel either too scared or too overwhelmed (I’m not sure which) to start.  So I’m blogging.  Won’t do anything for me, I know, but maybe it’ll take my mind off of it.

Ok, ended up going to Mitsuwa and my friends brothers b-day party.  Mitsuwa first.  We made it there in 2 hours!  I was excited!  Only one of my friends was able to make it, but it was still fun.  I got Momotaro (Peach Boy) in Japanese, b-day cards, a manga and a phone charm.  Then we went to the mall.  We didn’t have enough time to go to Sanrio, but I got a set of tea cups for Christmas!  They were half off too!  They have a sakura print on them and have a cream background.  My mom took them away because they’re for Christmas, so I can’t describe them further.  At the same place, I got a book of Japanese childrens stories.  We actually already have the book, but this one was in color, and I wanted my own copy.  Then we went back to Mitsuwa and ate lunch.  My mom did some shopping and I couldn’t find waht I was looking for.  That made me sad.  But I wanted to find more things to buy, but my friend had to go to work so we left.

Then, after we got back home, I went to visit a friend on campus and drop off a Doraemon (I think that’s how you spell it) pastery that we got at Mitsuwa for her.  I don’t know her too well, but we were, and are, in the same Japanese class.  And I’m horrible at making conversation so it was a bit akward.  Anyway, she liked it so that made me happy.  And she gave me cookies, which are great by the way, and that also made me happy.  Then I went to the b-day party.  And it was fun!  Lots of talking and joking.  And after, a handful of people went over to another friends house and we played Mao.  I don’t have a good handle on the game at all, so I won’t bother trying to explain it.  But it was fun.

Now, to the anxiety part.  I skipped like 4 classes this week.  And feel really guilty about it.  I think that’s part of why I’m anxious.  The rest is school work, I feel unprepared and behind.  I’m not that behind, I just feel that way.  And I joined and am secretary for the Japanese Martial Arts and Culture Club at my college.  I went to the first session last night and felt so akward!  I thought I felt akward in dance class in high school.  But this is worse.  I’m scared of hurting the person I’m working with because the techniques don’t rely on strength.  And I just feel akward moving my body.  So I hope I get more comfterable quickly, or I may have a panic attack before each session.  Oh, I also feel like I don’t know what I’m doing.

And I’ll really try and get a different layout up soon, I can’t stand this one!  I have one made up, I just have to code it.  But I’ve been really lazy lately so I don’t know if and when it will actually get up.  Well, I’ll try!

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Well I didn’t have to get up early this morning!  Yay for an extra hour of sleep!  Not much, but I couldn’t get back to sleep.  So my website hosting has been renewed, and I have a new layout!  I know, it sucks.  But I spent so much time making the buttons that I had to use it.  The only thing I do like about it is the color scheme.  But everything else is crap.  I had 2 major issues getting it to work.  1 was having an extra layer in there and the other was using a different style sheet for cutenews.  I felt so stupid.  Oh well, it’s fixed.

Random side note, my keyboard is making funny noises…  I want a new laptop!

Hrm, lets see…  Oh!  Guess what!  I was planning to cancel the deluxe edition of Uroboros because I didn’t do my research and I didn’t know what “LP” stood for.  Stupid me.  So now I can’t cancel it.  Wanna know why?  Too bad you’re going to hear it!  The credit card used for online purchases had unauthorized charges on it and my dad canceled the card before I could cancel the order.  The irony of it.  So now I’m stuck with 2 records…  I may try and sell them on e-bay.  But I’m keeping the extra DVD.  I hate myself sometimes.

And I bought my friends b-day presesnts!  And seeing that they don’t read this, there’s no harm in me revealing some details.  I’ll give a virtual cookie to whoever knows where the last half of the sentance came from.  I bought them small bottles and will fill them with stars.  It’s relativly rare to see stars where I live so it’s kinda special.  I know, I’m cheap.  But I would rather spend the money on family.  And speaking of b-days my friend’s brother is celebrating his 21st this Saturday.  And I really don’t want to spend the gas money and the money for food to celebrate with him.  It’s on the other side of town for me and I would rather be somewhere else.  So now that I’m thinking about it, maybe I could do 2 things.  I was going to bite the bullet and go, but I got excited about trying to find things at Mitsuwa.  So that’s waht I really want to do.  But that’s more of an all day thing.  But maybe, I could get away with doing both.  Just checked on the time for his party and I think I could do both!  I’ll check with my mom about times and such, because she’s coming with me for sure.  I really want to look for the milk syrup that goes on shave ice, salt ice cream, and other sweets!  So excited!  I doubt I’ll be able to find the milk syrup stuff, but that’s ok.  I have $10 worth of certificates I can spend!  Whee!  I’m getting something from the book store, maybe a childrens book?  And maybe we can stop by the mall, they have a sanrio store and a tea pot/cup store!  Excitment!  Ok, I’ll shut up now…

And just as another side note, this blog post is almost as long as my paper for English…  Short about 50 words or so.

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Gah!  I hate it!  I have almost zero free time!  So the first 2 weeks I worked hard, went to class and did everything I was supossed to do.  I was burnt out last week so I skipped an entire week of business classes.  I feel better this week, but I have the second draft of a paper due the 17th and a quiz tomorrow, and probably an exam Thursday.  So yeah.  I’m giving myself some free time back!  I’m getting back into Fiesta (mmorpg), and watched the first 2 episodes of Higurashi no Naku Koro ni.  And now I’m blogging.  I feel better already.

So Tuesdays and Thursdays I’m entirely burnt out.  I have 3 classes and am at school for 9 hours (although I’m not in class all 9 hours) and it’s draining.  But on Mondays and Wednesdays, I only have 1 class, yay!  And I have the rest of the day for homework for my Tues. and Thurs. classes…  -.-  Sometimes I do a lot, sometimes I do a little, depends on my mood.  I still have to read 2 more chapters for business, study for that exam and for a quiz.  So today I didn’t do much.  Oh!  But Chinese, the prof doesn’t really teach.  It’s driving me mental!  All he does is have us pronounce things and go over a couple culture points that we’re going to forget in a half an hour!  It’s a language class, and I think he’s trying to do too much.  We don’t practice gramar, hardly touch words and their meaning and we don’t practice the characters.  He just emphasized the numbers (which, thankfully, I know from Japanese) and said we will be using them soon.  Oh, and my Japanese sensei is in the class too.  She makes things interesting, like making hime explain things over and over.  My friend and I think it’s funny.  So, in conclusion, that class terrifies me just because I don’t feel like I know anything.  So, I’m going to do some research on language learning programs.

What else is new…  Oh, I got my b-day pressesnts over the weekend!  Yami no Kuni no Alice by D and Glass Skin by Dir en grey!  I’ve listened to pat of D’s single and Asagi’s singing style sounds different.  Less operatic maybe?  And I haven’t had a chance to listen to Deg yet, my laptop refuses to recognize CDs.  Makes me mad!  And I just pre-ordered Deg’s Uroboros.  The limited edition one.  Yeah, I feel stupid.  I figured shipping to be $20, nope.  More like $35.  Grand total (with about $2 of points factored in (every little bit helps!)) of $143.72.  And with the stock market falling, I feel even more stupid.

Once again, I have been meaning to work on this site!  Hosting should auto renew.  Anyway, I still need to add a gallery, finish up zodiac info, and rotate the media player.  I need a check list or something.  And a new layout.  So hopefully that will happen soon!